青少年小說
更新日期:
2016-05-18
The Way I Used To Be
Amber Smith
Margaret K. McElderry Books
March 2016
384pp
書籍編號:
10-871
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新銳作家Amber Smith初試啼聲的青少年小說《The Way I Used to Be》透過毫不掩飾的寫實筆觸,赤裸的描述一位少女在經歷了嚴重的創傷之後,如何從封閉、墮落,進而逐步釋懷,並重新找回自我的心路轉折,是一部令人心碎、震驚、卻充滿豐沛情感的感人作品。

小說中的女主角艾登(Eden)原本是每個人心目中的完美女孩,而她也對於自己所擁有的美好形象,感到滿足並且自豪。

直到她升上高中之後的某個夜晚,艾登的哥哥最要好的朋友凱文(Kevin)到家中過夜,在夜深人靜時進入艾登的房間,並強行侵犯了她。艾登不斷的祈求老天爺,希望這一切只是場可怕的夢魘。但是當她隔天醒來時:身上嚴重的瘀青、床單上的血跡,以及床邊散落一地的物品,全都證明這一切並不是夢。

艾登沒有勇氣站出來指控凱文是侵犯她的兇手,她的父母視凱文如己出,她的哥哥更待凱文如親兄弟一般。無助的艾登,隔天一早只能假裝什麼事也沒發生一樣,和凱文一同在餐桌上若無其事的吃著早餐。

艾登決定將那可怕的一夜埋藏在心底,同時也將過往美好的自己徹底的封存起來──從原本天真、可愛的甜美女孩,轉變成一個嗜菸好酒、熱愛徹夜狂歡、放蕩不羈的少女。希望能透過這樣的偽裝,掩飾自己內心的傷痛。

然而,艾登的偽裝非但沒有讓心靈的傷口癒合,反而讓原本深愛她的家人、朋友感到失望與不諒解,彼此之間的關係更出現了一道深深的裂痕。更讓原本真心想要與她交往的男孩們擔心卻步。

迷失方向的艾登,該如何鼓起勇氣面對那一夜的傷痛?她又該如何重新找回自己的人生?

《The Way I Used to Be》透過作者真實赤裸的剖析,清楚的描繪出難以言喻的心痛、友誼與親情的可貴,以及包容的力量。是一部發人深省的處女作小說。

 

● 作者簡介

Amber Smith 在水牛城與紐約這兩個美國城市中長大,獲得繪畫藝術學士學位之後,取得歷史碩士學位。曾撰寫許多關於藝術史的文章。寫作之餘,她也擔任美術顧問及評論的工作。本書《The Way I Used to Be》是她的第一部小說。 關於她的更多資訊,請參考網站: AmberSmithAuthor.com.

 

● 媒體報導

'A poignant and painfully honest survival story about the aftermath of trauma. Amber Smith weaves Eden's narrative with a deft, empathetic touch that doesn't shy away from difficult truths. This is a courageous, necessary, and beautiful book.' Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces,

'A raw novel that’ll stay with you long after you finish.' Buzzfeed

'A difficult, painful journey, but teens who have experienced rape and abuse will be grateful for this unvarnished and ultimately hopeful portrait. Eden’s shell-shocked narrative is an excellent narrative conduit for what Smith has to say.' Booklist

'*This is a poignant book that realistically looks at the lasting effects of trauma on love, relationships, and life… Teens will be reminded of Laurie Halse Anderson’s Speak. VERDICT: An important addition for every collection.' School Library Journal

'Eden is a young woman silenced by threat and shame, but so too is she a character who will inspire hope, for her extraordinarily gripping story is not only a call for action but a reminder of the power we find within ourselves to overcome and survive.' Amy Beashel, author of We Are All Constellations

'After finishing this book, my heart was pounding and I couldn’t find words big enough to describe how brilliant, beautiful, and powerful it is.' L.E. Flynn, author of All Eyes On Her

'This young adult novel is an unflinching look at the struggles of a rape victim to process her trauma and find the strength to rebuild her life.'
Laurie Halse Anderson, author of Speak

'Readers will root for her as she gathers the courage, at last, to speak up.' B&N Teen Blog

'This isn’t an easy read, but it’s an important one… I was incredibly moved by Smith’s powerful writing, and Eden’s story of growth and survival is one you won’t want to miss. You’ll be thinking about this one long after you read that final page.' Seventeen Magazine

'The Way I Used To Be is an intensely gripping and raw look at secrets, silence, speaking out, and survival in the aftermath of a sexual assault. A must-have for every collection that serves teens.' SLJ / Teen Librarian Toolbox

'The Way I Used to Be explores the aftermath of sexual assault with a precision and searing honesty that is often terrifying, sometimes eerily beautiful, and always completely true. It is The Hero’s Journey through a distorted circus mirror – one girl’s quest to turn desperation into courage, to become a survivor instead of a victim. Amber Smith gets it exactly right.' Amy Reed, author of The Nowhere Girls